Life Behind the Shades.../The Phonecall

(Phone ringing)... I reach over and the picture shows up is her picture on my iphone and everything stops my heart speeds up and my breath shortens for a min... "Hello" I say she replies “Mr. freaky... I find myself smiling out of control but I don’t hold it back I enjoy every min of it... We speak for a few minutes and agree on meeting up later on that afternoon for drinks. We hang up the phone and all of a sudden this weight I’ve been carrying on my aching heart has vanished the sun shows its bright face and music no longer saddens me... The hours seem to fly by and the closer the time gets for us to meet the more anxious I get... I look at the phone waiting for that picture to show waiting for that phone to ring I count every hour, minute and every second like if I’m waiting for the ball to drop on new year’s... 7 8 9 10 o’clock no text no call what could’ve happened why hasn’t she called why hasn’t she text... WHAT THE FUCK!!! I can’t believe this... 11 o’clock I’m still sitting here in my button up and my shades holding the phone that never rang... 12:15 no call.. By this time my tie and kicks are loosen up.. Reality starts to sink in thoughts of her with another guy are vivid in my mind.. She forgot about me she left me out in the cold... My heart accelerates and my hands start to sweat my stomach feels empty my knees have weakling the room start to shake I lean forward rest my elbows on my knees and hold my head with my hands and the truth sinks in she stood you up.. I hear her voice in my head telling me she wanted to see me.. I hear her laugh on the other end of the phone enjoying herself while I crack a joke... I ask myself was it something I said or did someone else call her and filled her up with things I couldn’t do... I get up from the couch and walk to the bathroom to wash my face and I look in the mirror and see a man losing his mind, dignity to women so heartless....


Listening to Mr. West..
808's Heartbreak.".Say You Will"