Life Behind the shades..13../Redemption../Over...
"Are you going to let me in or keep looking space out like you have seen a ghost" it takes me a couple of minutes to snap out of it but when i finally do i move out the way and let her in. "I'm sorry i just woke up so I'm feeling a little out of it". What the fuck is going on here I'm i going crazy was i not just dreaming about this chick. After a couple of minutes past she starts to explain things to me that i couldn't believe she was saying, better yet things I've been waiting to hear her say, she has come for me and my love. I start to feel all these weird feelings in my stomach that remind me of the good times we shared and that scare in my heart starts to heal in seconds. As she continues to go on and on about how bad she has felt and how empty her world and life has been without me i space out for a minute and come realize that there's something wrong here that feeling of her in front of me has changed is no longer a desperation feeling to see here is more like anger and despair, you see after all those lonely sleepless nights full of nightmares i figured if i have gone this far without her i can go a little longer. I know it may sounds crazy but she left me to die in a cold foggy morning with my heart lock down with no looking back and now that her plans have backfired she finds herself sitting in my room yapping away about this and that. So now its her time to make that phonecall, its time her nights become sleepless and her days go from sunny cold and cloudy so she can see the nightmare coming true. This is my Redemption that only a broken heart can feel. "I'm sorry to cut you off but i cant do this i haven't heard from you in weeks and now you just want to walk right in and continue from where we left off i don't think that's possible. "WHAT!!! Are you talking about Freeky i thought this is what you wanted.. I'm confused". "Look theirs nothing to be confused about what you're asking me do is something i thought i wanted something i needed but come to realize we wasn't meant to be we just happened". The look in her face is not only devastating but full of guilt she knew what was coming for her. She sat in my bed for a minute or two when it finally hit her and i can see in her eyes as her whole world came crashing down so i took the opportunity to say this to her " Make sure you don't let the door hit you on your way out". I walk away and head to the bathroom when all i feel is a cool breeze from behind past me and the sound of the door closing and ending this nightmare for once and for all. I walk toward the sink to wash my face And the last thought on my mind is Welcome to Heartbreak you Paranoid young NY girl..
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Listening to Mr.West
808 & Heartbreaks
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